Post by myah on Aug 15, 2010 23:32:08 GMT -5
so, you want to know more about me? all righty, well. for starters, my name's myah fae sommers, but you can just call me by my name. i know, great name. oh, so i'm twenty-one years old; yeah, my birthday's on November 21st, so i expect a ton of presents, hear me? good. well i'll clear this up now for you guys; i'm just a returning citizen; oh, and i'm a recovering from anorexia athletica . originally i'm from northampton ; i know, it's just a really awesome place. i get asked this a lot, so imma clear it up; i am heterosexual. oh, and all right, so for some reason people compare me a lot to valerie poxlietner, but psh, we know that i'm better looking, right?
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snippets from a personal journal she was required to write in daily
August 10th-
“Day one in this hell hole that I was sent off to. Let me start by saying, I don’t belong here, and I don’t want to write in this damned ‘healing’ book every single day either. I shouldn’t be here right now. I should be in my own bed right now, texting my best friend….or at least who I thought was my best friend and complaining about there being nothing on television. I hate Wesley….hate hate hate hate hate hate hate. He’s the whole fucking reason that I am here in the Timberline Knolls in Rhode Island rather than back home in Northampton. I don’t have a problem okay? So what., I don’t eat a whole lot? It sure beats being obese. And so what if I like to exercise, maybe instead of ragging on me for doing it, they should use me as an example for other people to do it. I don’t think it’s a big deal that I am only 81 pounds. There are people thinner and weigh less than me. I cant believe that my parents turned on me either… the three people I loved most in this world are the reasons I am isolated from everyone else I know. I hope he’s having a grand old ttime back in Northampton while I’m here having…”
Septmber 15th- “…pleasant surprise today. One of the workers here, Anna I think her name was, came to my room and told me I had a visitor. It shocked me a little as I wasn’t expecting anyone. Mom and dad had headed back home just a few days ago after spending a weekend, so I knew it couldn’t possibly be them, and Kelley always called before he decided to make a trip to see me. If I’m going to be honest with you, I was really hoping it was Wesley. I still haven’t heard from him. No visits….no calls…no letters….nothing. It really kind of sucks. But anyway, back to the visitor. Winter came down to see me. It was pretty wonderful. We sat there for hours talking about things back home and how people were. Before she left I broke down and asked about Wesley…he’s apparently just fine. Win says she sees him at parties when she goes…..I’m confused I’ll admit. Wesley never used to party? Maybe the whole reason he was really ‘concerned’ about me was so that he wouldn’t feel bad about dumping our friendship so he could party…. Maybe I am over reacting, but I really don’t think I am….”
October 30th- “…another call from both Kelley and MJ today. Its good to hear their voices and know that they still remember I exist. Yea, still nothing from my ‘best friend’, I guess that I am expecting too much to expect him to call. I almost asked Kelley to ask him why, but I am afraid of what the answer will be. If I don’t hear from him soon though, I’m just going to assume he is done with me. I don’t want to dwell on that though. Lets talk about what I’m actually suppose to talk about…my progress. Apparently I am progressing well. I’m up to 95 pounds now…15 more than when I got here. That’s made them excited. I got a day pass for good progress so my parents and I went around the town that the center is in. It’s a pretty nice little town. We went out to eat too, and I made a big show of me eating so they wouldn’t question it at all, though I do need to exercise, I’m getting flabby and I…”
November 21st- “ Happy birthday to me….whatever. To be fair, my day started off amazing….it really did. Some of the girls I share classes with threw a party for me, and when I went back to my room I was shocked to find not only my parents there, but Winter and Kelley as well. Most importantly though, my little love bug was there! I cried a little, not even going to lie. Ha. Hearing Dayna’s voice almost daily was nothing compared to actually getting to see her. I spent most of the day ignoring everyone but her to be honest. Ha. I let her open the presents that I got, and she blew out the candles on the cake my parents brought. Yea, I actually ate two pieces of cake that day, proud day for my advisor. Ha. My entire day went great, and I was extremely sad to see everyone go. Once I was alone though, it hit me that Wesley never called or visited… The one day I really thought he would. I officially give up on the kid, I don’t care if he apologizes a million times when I get back, I’m not going to forgive…”
December 25th- “….away the gifts. I’m really just tired now. I’m kind of glad everyone called yesterday and my parents left early today because I think I am going to crash very shortly. Oh, I didn’t mention it earlier when I was talking about the gifts, I did get a package from Wesley today. But just like I did with the package I got for my birthday a day late, I sent it back to him. Three months he left me in here and didn’t call, or write, or visit. He better not think that the fact he sent me a birthday and Christmas present is going to make our friendship okay when I get out…..because its not…..”
Janurary 7th- “…I’ve come to realize that I owe my health to Kelley and Dayna. Mary Jane and Winter too I suppose. With out them calling and visiting and supporting me, there is no way I would have ever worked towards getting out of this place. I know now that I was in a dark place when I got here (though this doesn’t mean I will admit it to a certain person, nor will I be so forgiving when I see him again) but the support of my REAL friends helped me through. Really, the days that I didn’t hear from one of them (which wasn’t too often as Kelley generally called me daily) I really didn’t do so well. I would just be in a difficult mood , I would feel like it was hopeless and that I shouldn’t even bother trying. But the days I heard from one of them, I was reminded on why I needed to get better, so that I could be back with my friends and my family. Really, I’d be lost with out them, I owe my progress to them completely. I have less than a month in this place before I should be released. As long as I don’t relapse and I stay around what I weigh know (115….can you believe it? Idont think I have ever weighed this much….) I should be released the first of February, I’m excited to get my life…”
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so, hey thurr! my name is samiam and i'm age here years old! i know, right? my other kids on where the sidewalk ends are garret, charlotte, jersey, olivia and i've been roleplaying for tons of years, so i think i've got some talent. ... you don't believe me? psh. i can prove it~see Char.